Tuesday, May 20, 2008

The Process of Searching…

I’ve been reading about Muslim converts and I felt touched. I mean the journey that they have gone through, the thinking process, the doubts and questions that they have, brought them to know and understand Islam deeper and deeper. And according to their stories, all of them stated that they submitted to Islam after reading, researching and understanding the Quran. And these converts, most of them are more “Muslim” than those who are born “Muslim”. Why?

So I thought for a while, about myself. I am born a Muslim, grew up in a Muslim family. And Alhamdulillah…my parents taught and brought me up well.

But when I think back, I took the Muslim title for granted, meaning that compared to these people who converted or as they say reverted (reverted back to the true religion-Islam), they went through this searching process. As I read, some of them were born in a very religious Christian and even Jewish family. So they perform their religious routine and somehow realize that there is something wrong. Too many errors and blunders that don’t make any sense and not logical.

Let’s take Prophet Ibrahim’s searching process as an example. I think most of you already knew the story about Prophet Ibrahim and his father and people that worshipped idols. He was asked by his father to worship idols. But then he questioned back, why must he worship the idols that were made by their own hands?

When he asked his father and his people: What is that which you worship?
They answered: We worship idols, and (out of veneration for them) we remain fervently ever devoted to them
Prophet Ibrahim asked: Do these idols hear you when you call on them?
Do they benefit you or do you harm?
They replied: No, (they could not do any!) But we found our fathers doing that.?
Prophet Ibrahim said: Have you ever considered of what use it is that you have been worshipping?
(I ask you this) because these idols are enemies to me; (I do not worship) other than Allah, Lord of all the Worlds;

(Asy-Syua’raa’ 70-77)


Actually it is just as simple as something logical to our mind. It is not logical to worship idols that doesn't hear, speak, do not bring them benefit. And as they said, they only worshipped idols because they see their fathers doing the same thing.

That is why when Prophet Ibrahim searched for God, he observed , thought and used his mind.

And when the night overshadowed him with its darkness, he saw a (shining) star, and said: Is this my Lord? But when it set, he said: I do not love things that set.

And when he saw the rising moon (shining), he said: ?Is this my Lord? But when it set, he said: If my Lord does not guide me, I will most certainly become one of the people who go astray.?

And when he saw the sun rising (in shining splendour), he said: Is this my Lord? It is larger.But when it set, he said: O my people, far be it from me to ascribe divinity, as you do, to anything other than God.

Truly, I have set my face and my person to Allah Who has created the heavens and the earth, upright as a true believer, holding firmly on the principle of Oneness of God, and I am not one of those who ascribe divinity to anything besides God.

(Al An’aam, 76-79)


So from questioning, thinking and searching, he found the answer. He found God and believe in God…

As a conclusion, I think this process of searching is very important, to become closer to Allah, strengthen our belief and know what is our reason and role as a Muslim in this world...

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Disaster - What can we do?

Wow, the latest news that I heard was about the earthquake in China that killed (until now) about 12000 people. Ya Allah…another disastrous tragedy. It seems like we were just stunned by the Nargis tropical cyclone that hit Myanmar a few days ago that killed about 30000 people, destroying the Irrawady delta (very densely populated and the rice bowl of Myanmar). That just reminds me back to the Tsunami that hit Banda Acheh at 2004 and killed thousands of people. These tragedies are catastrophic, just imagine the aftermath and all.

Those tragedies, natural disaster happened in other countries. Our neighboring countries. What about our country? Are we safe? What about our condition?

To think about it, anything can happen. As we can see, although in our country, Alhamdulillah, these big disasters does not or does not yet happen. But there are small disasters happening and starting to increase steadily…

Let’s not go too far. Why not just start from this year, 2008. The latest election…as we can see Malays, most importantly Muslims are not united and this is such a shame. I mean they all claim to improve the condition and life of Malays, of Muslims but as all of us can see, there’s not much of improvement. In fact, I think the political condition is getting worse.

And then about the economic status that is definitely decreasing. The increased price of oil, food, toll…everything is expensive nowadays. And to think that these problems happen in just a matter of a few months. Just think, even if we have money or we are rich but there is no food..what can you do? It seems like all the money that you have is invaluable rite?

This doesn’t include other problems including safety problems, social problems. I don’t feel safe in my own country. I mean with all the rape cases, robbery, murder happening everyday. Where is the value of a human life? Just a few ringgit…
And about social problems? Need I say more? Just read the newspaper. I’m sure there are news about it everyday.

So what can we do? Do you still want to live like this? I know that I don’t….
We have to do something rite to change our condition.

Just look at this ayat that I think a lot of people like to quote :

Bagi manusia ada malaikat-malaikat yang selalu mengikutinya bergiliran, di muka dan di belakangnya, mereka menjaganya atas perintah Allah[767]. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak merobah keadaan sesuatu kaum sehingga mereka merobah keadaan[768] yang ada pada diri mereka sendiri. Dan apabila Allah menghendaki keburukan terhadap sesuatu kaum, maka tak ada yang dapat menolaknya; dan sekali-kali tak ada pelindung bagi mereka selain Dia. ((Ar-Ra’d, 13:11)

So we cannot just pray to Allah and hope that everything will be Ok, everything will be alrite? Where’s the will? Let’s think about this together…

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Passion

Some ppl find it easy, I mean come on, is it so hard to find something that you really like that you’re passionate about? But apparently, I don’t find it easy. For the last couple of weeks I’ve been thinking about what I like to do, what I love what I’m passionate about and till now I still don’t have the answer.

Maybe because I do something for the sake of just doing it not because I like it . I study IT because that is what I’ve been offered by UPU at that time, so I just went ahead and to think back, I didn’t even gave the offer a second thought. I just accepted it huhu. And that is for the sake of just continuing my studies.

And then I got a job offer from my company and also without much thought, I accepted it. Maybe because that was my first job offer and all and I was like overexcited to start working and being that so called adult haha for the sake of having a job, earning my own money and literally for the sake of living.

And it didn’t hit me back then, but now, I mean for like a year back, I’ve been thinking about all this. What have I been doing for the past few years? Is this the road, the route that I want in life, is this what I like, what I love doing?

I always have been told, heard and read about what you like is different from what you are supposed to do to live. What I want to say here is that what you like is maybe just a hobby or what you do on your leisure time for instance if you like music, singing or playing some kind of sports, although you like to do those activities, it will just remain as a hobby because you can’t make money for living out of it.

Yes, it is true that some ppl do make money out of doing such thing, like being a singer, actor or a professional footballer but just how many? So for the rest of us, we are stuck with a job that we have to do to earn money and that is just about it. I haven’t done a survey or what so ever but from what I read and heard, most ppl are not satisfied and don’t like their job. And it is because of the lack of passion. So maybe we should some how find that passion in the things that you do…how? I’m still searching how…maybe if you know how, you can tell me :D

Friday, May 2, 2008

From KL to P.Perhentian 08

Huhu…just can’t wait to share my experience at Pulau Perhentian.
Actually I’ve been to P.Perhentian before in 2004 (thanks to my practical company huhu). This time around, my company arranged a team bulding / happy happy trip to Pulau Perhentian for 4 days. So let’s start with the 1st day ok.

DAY 1 (24th April 08)

Orait. On day 1 we gathered at Wisma Bernama and got on the allocated bus and apparently we were late. Waaaaaa everybody was waiting for us (so sorry guys..maap..maap). So we finally departed around 7.30am. It was a long journey. And it rained all the way. I was quite worried about the weather.

After a few naps and stops along the way, we arrived at Kota Bharu around 6.30pm. We stayed at this home stay house for the nite. That nite we went to KB town for dinner and ironically we went to KFC to have our dinner hahaha. What the…(tuuuut)..?? KFC? Aiyyoo..came so far from KL and we just ate KFC hehe. Just didn’t have any idea where else to go and our supposedly tour guide, went to his house so we took the matter in our own hands and end up eating at KFC.

After that we went to the nearby pasar. It was still raining. The bus picked us up and we went back to the house and had a good nite sleep.

DAY 2 (25th April 08)

Got up really early . Don’t want to be late again rite? Hehe. Had nasi berlauk for breakfast and after that, we got on the bus for our ride to the jetty. Arrived at the jetty around 10am and got on the boat to P.Perhentian. The boat ride was quite challenging as it kept on jumping because of the waves. But the breeze on your face…ahhh..refreshing. :D

After 45 minutes, we arrived at Perhentian. Blue sky..blue sea…wow! Picteresque..so beautiful that no word could describe it. :DDD. After that, lunch was served. Mmmm mmmm…the food was tasty and in a large quantity too.

That evening we went snorkeling. Don’t know why coz the previous time I went to Perhentian I wasn’t sea sick, but this time around I felt quite dizzy. At the first snorkeling stop, I went down and snorkel, hoping to see the same clear water, fishes, colourful live corals but alas, it was quite frustrating. The water is still clear, but it wasn’t as clear as before. Lots of corals are already dead. Felt quite sad. After that, we went to the 2nd stop.
This was where we can see turtles. But at that point I just didn’t feel like snorkeling. So I didn’t went off the boat. The next stop was where we can see sharks and this time I did went down to the sea and did saw not 1, but a few sharks hoho.

The last stop was where we washed ourselves with cold refreshing spring water. To think how amazing it is, fresh water just nearby the salty sea water…Subhanallah.

After the snorkeling trip, we head back to our chalets. Everybody was feeling really tired. So I just lay down on the wooden seats nearby the chalets and relax…watching the sunset.

Then of course it was dinner time.huhu eat, eat. Later that nite, there was a telematch where we played bursting the balloons, collect sea water using holey coconut shells, straw transfer huhu. We did won a few prizes :D. Then we just relaxed by the beach..singing while my friend played the guitar (although it was quite hard to find the perfect song and we didn’t memorise most of the lyrics ahaha). Midnite already..time for zzZZzzZZzzZ..sweet dreams.


DAY 3 (26th April 08)

As usual, woke up quite early, had breakfast and went to another snorkeling trip huhu. This time they brought us to Pulau Susu Besar and Kecil. At the first stop (at the Pulaus) , it was more beautiful compared to yesterday’s stop. More fishes can be seen. We followed the trainer and he showed us napoleon fish, ray fish and nemo hehe (couldn’t find dory though ahaha). Then we went to this last stop where there are live corals. We followed the instructor and held on to the rope but the rope slipped from my hands and I got carried away by the strong current. Tried to swim back to the rope but the current was so strong. Luckily the trainer pulled me back to the rope. At that time I was so tired. When I got to the chalet, ate lunch and of course took a nap.huhu.

Later on, the team building session began. We were divided into several groups and unlike Team Building 07, this team building was more laid back, played simple games and had fun. Then we bathed and I tried the kayak (ho quite tough actually).

That nite before the karaoke/lucky draw, we were served BBQ while enjoying the Chelsea – MU match (haha MU lost ;P)


DAY 4 (27th April 08)

Waaaa…time to go home already? Why do all good things have to come to an end L waa so sad to leave this place. Hopefully I will come back here or perhaps other places in the future hehehe

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Ambition

Dunno why but I feel like writing about ambition today. Maybe because I’m feeling quite ambitious ? Perhaps ;P

Anyhow, I think all of you would still remember when your teacher asked you what do you want to be when you grow up? What is your ambition? And at that time maybe you would say doctor, teacher, police, accountant..and the list goes on. My ambition at that time was to be a doctor (now I’m sure that I know and you know that I didn’t became a doctor huhuhu). So just how many of you became what you wished and hoped you wanted to be? I really want to know.

Well want I want to point out here is that was then this is now, that was a dream..and this is reality, 2 different things. Yes of course you can make your dreams come true, but you yourself will have to determine it. Ambition is important but what is more important is your will.Your hard work. Your strive. That is more important.

I am not saying that having an ambition is not relevant because that is your goal. But if you just have a goal, a vision but you don’t do anything, so what will happen?

I remembered one day when I asked my father what was his ambition. He said that when he was little he only wanted to become a clerk. But it turned out that he became a lecturer because yup he did studied hard. So I can say that I am what I am today because of what I have done. I can conclude it as not so good but not that bad either. But there are still room for improvement rite? ;p

Maybe because we are adults now, so we can think realistically on what we can achieve. Like for now it is not about being a doctor..being a ceo or an engineer anymore. It is more on how to live our life. We became to realise that this life is not just about achieving your so called ambition that you dreamt of when you were in school. That is just a small portion of it…so strive to success!!

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

If we don’t want to be insulted, don’t insult ourselves

Hmm..just want to comment on the film. I have seen this film and I agree it was very wrong of them to make this film and send a wrong message about Islam through this film. Like he used a certain ayat and show the relevance of that ayat with the World Trade Centre incident and so on but what is the ayat before that one and what is the ayat after that?

Thanks to this film, maybe before this we are not so concern about what the westerners think and do to Islam, but by making this film, they are making a point to show that they really hate Islam and will do anything .Me as a muslimah, I want to study the Quran so that I understand it even more.

Today, I read about a comment on this film by the Perlis mufti, I think he had made some good points that we can think together.

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2008&dt=0406&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Bicara_Agama&pg=ba_01.htm

He said that we, as Muslim don’t show to them the true meaning of Islam. Islam is perceived as terrorism, poor, violent and so on. This is because this is what they see through the media, this is what they portray to the world so how can we expect them to see the beauty of Islam? As we can see in Islamic countries, there are wars, Islamic countries are poor, we are far behind in economics, education, science and technology. The world is blinded by all this

It is sad but true. It is time for us to stop blaming others and improve ourselves first. Prove to them what we really are.

Like the mufti said, return to the Quran and Sunnah, because we are supposed to be respected and set a good example, not to be disrespected.
If we don’t want to be insulted, don’t insult ourselves.

Monday, April 7, 2008

Ch Ch Ch Changes

Wow its been a loooong time since I last wrote in my blog haha. Been very busy lately. Now that I have been transferred from the Bukit Jalil office to Wisma at KL, since then my life have changed somehow.

Waking up early in the morning…traffic jam…tolls…icy cold office (feels just like being in a refrigerator, trust me)..new makan spot..new pc (love my new pc though huhu)..new friends..and the list goes on… Lots of adjustment to be made since how I work, even how I lived my life had been some kind of habit and to change it sure takes time and effort.

So today I just feel like talking about changes. Because for me myself, I am in the changing process, in this case, the change of work place.

Lets see..maybe we would first ask the question why change? Maybe like me, I am instructed to change (out of my will). Maybe the changes happen because the current situation or from what we can see and perceive is not too our preference. We dislike something. So we change, like what happened in the recent election…major changes in certain states.

Our beloved Prophet Muhammad also changed for the better through hijrah from Mekah to Yathrib (Madinah) and hijrah was an important turning point in Islam, Hijrah was the beginning of the spread of Islam.

Maybe we can change unintentionally, without even us ourself realizing that we are changing. Like when I went to my friend’s wedding and my friends say that I look different. I look at the mirror and I still see the old me, nothing different. So, I’m thinking maybe it’s just their opinion or maybe because we haven’t met for quite a while. But bottom line, I don’t feel different and I’m still the same.

It is them that I think are changing haha. With their families – wives, husbands, babies :D

But I think if you realize that you need to change and the change is good for you. Go on. Because God will not change your fate if you yourself won’t change. Change for good.